My husband!!!

Nathan is seriously the most amazing man I have ever met. The picture on the left was at least four years ago. You can tell by the way I am looking at him that I adored him. And I still do, probably more then I ever thought I could. Back when we first started dating in 2006 I would have never thought that we would be where we are today. We were both just 16 and we hardly even knew each other. For the first at least 2 years of our relationship we only saw each other once a week and only to go on a small date like a movie and lunch. It was really hard for me to be away from him. I fell so deep and I just wanted to be with him all the time. Now that I look back I think all the time we were a part just made us stronger and made our love deeper. When your away from someone you love so much, it really does test your love for each other. It really was tough and I know a lot of the time I wanted to just give up. But I never did and neither did he. I am so thankful that even though it was hard at first, well for a while, that at least I got to spend some time with him. Every time we would see each other it made me realize how much I truly loved him. He is such a great person, he has a kind heart. I know things might not be prefect right now either, but they aren't horrible. We are still young and have a long road a head. We just have to take it one day at time and do the best we can. I know that as long as we have each other that we can accomplish anything we want to. Not all good things come right away. Even today as I try to describe my feelings for him.. I just don't know how to say it. All I know is that I don't ever want to let go. I know we have something good, that no one else has. I know that I could never find anyone that is even close to him. I know that I wouldn't be happy, complete and just me if I didn't have him. I know that as long as we remember why we got married and why we are with each other then we can get through anything. When you love someone with your all heart and would do anything in this world for that person you know that you can you can accomplish whatever you want to.

Our growing baby!

Yes, I am PRETTY sure there is only ONE baby in there. I am excited that I am starting to show more and not look like I am just fat or something.

baby movement!!

For the past week or so I've been feeling the baby move almost everyday now. Usually it's only in the mornings and it only last for a second. I can't wait till Nathan can feel the baby move!! I am just not looking forward to the baby kicking me all hours of the night and kicking my ribs and other body parts. It will be so worth it though.

Only three more weeks till we know if it's a boy or girl!

So excited!

I had a doctor appt. today. We heard the heart beat it was about 140. They also did the blood work for down syndrome and other sorts of stuff. Hoping and praying it comes back negative. So far I've gained 4 pounds, I thought for sure that I gained more then that. They also scheduled me for my 20 week ultra-sound. We will know if we are buying blue or pink on Jan. 11Th. How exciting! It seems so far away though. But the weeks have been going by so fast it's been crazy. I just want to know. I hate waiting around... It's so fun seeing what everyone wants the baby to be. Everyone has been guessing. It has truly been a blessing how supportive everyone has been being so far. We seriously couldn't have asked for better friends and family. When we find out the sex I will let everyone know. Promise. (:

2nd trimester!

I finally entered my second trimester and I was hoping that I was going to start feeling better. Everyone was telling me that I should. I actually feel worse and it sucks. But maybe with time as I get further along I will feel better. It's life though. And I can deal with this. It will all be worth it when I have a beautiful little baby in my arms. I just wish these headaches would not show up at my doorstep everyday and never leave. They are sure not welcome! I am pretty sure by the end of this pregnancy I am going to have the biggest hips known to man kind. On a better note though I feel 'fluttering' a lot more now. Sometimes it is just for a second, but sometimes like last week it happens for a while. And sometimes more then one or two times in a row. It feels so funny. Two weeks ago it felt like I was having a spasm, but in my stomach. Ever since then I haven't felt anything like that. It kind of freaked me out when it happened. lol. I can't wait till I feel the baby move and not just these flutters. Getting soooo close. (: Gosh this past month just flew by like no other. When it was Dec. 1st I was like; "Where did Nov. go?" It's crazy how fast time has gone by. Now I am hoping that it continues to go by fast, well, Dec. anyways. Now we only have 5 more weeks till we find out if we are going to be buying blue or pink. Honestly, I would be happy with either or. I am just excited to meet this baby.

It seems like these cravings are never ending!!!

I've had so many cravings it's kind of getting out of hand. Even though I have only gained one pound so far it seems like all I ever want to do is eat. It's CRAZY! I've craved anything from Chuck E. Cheese's buffalo wings to subway, KFC, mashed potatoes, sweets, Olive Garden. I could just go on and on about all the FOOD I WANT. I've been eating as healthy as possible. I eat a lot of fruits and veggies, I drink lots of water and milk. I haven't drank anything caffeinated. I haven't taken any meds., I've only taken Tylenol once. I go on a walk everyday. I want this baby to come out as healthy as possible! And I know I need to stay healthy for myself also. So far everything with this pregnancy has gone pretty smooth, besides the fact of how I've been feeling. And I know if I want this pregnancy to continue to go smooth I need to stay healthy! That is a fact. To me this baby already means so much to me, I know it sounds crazy, but for people that are parents know what I mean. It's like: this is my child, it has a heart beat, it's growing inside me and it's a PART of me and Nathan. I would already do anything for this baby. That's how much he/she means to me. I am pretty excited that tomorrow starts the first day of my second trimester. That means I am 13 weeks! Grow baby, grow!!! Now let's hope that I continue to feel better. This week I've been feeling A LOT better then the previous weeks so hopefully it only gets better with time! (:

Interviews, interviews, and more interviews.

Nathan has been bouncing from job to job for a few months now. He just can't seem to find anything that fits right and it's so frustrating! Over the last few months he has had many, many interviews and has got most of the jobs. Today he has two more interviews at Toy R Us and Macys. It would be awesome if he got one of these because he could just walk to them since we only have one car at the moment. AND if something ever happened to our one car then he wouldn't have to worry about taking the bus or anything. We are hoping that by Feb. he will be able to find something more stable. One: He needs to make more then 9.00 dollars an hour. Two: It needs to be something he enjoys at least a little. Three: It can be that far away from where we live... When he turns 21 there are a lot more opportunity's in the field of security. This is what he wants to do and he will make good money doing it, hopefully. So let's cross our fingers that something like this works out because we need to get out of this small apartment. Until then he will probably be bouncing from job to job which really sucks!

EDIT: Nathan got the job at Toys R Us. He's working 10pm to 6pm about 2-4 days a week. He's still working at Cableas about 3 days a week. But with all the holidays coming up he's getting a lot more hours which is good because we need to save, save, save!

We have a lot to be thankful for.

All together this has been a pretty tough year for my family. It's been a long hard road for baby Jorden and it will be a never ending road for him, but he's a fighter. So much has happened this past year... Good and bad. But I am thankful for my family. They are my support system. I don't think I tell them enough how much I love them and how much they truly mean to me. I am pretty sure they know though, I hope. All I know is that if it wasn't for the unconditional love of my family & close friends that I wouldn't be who I am today. They have been there for me through everything and I couldn't have made it this far without them. I am just thankful that all my life I've had the support & love from my family because of know a lot of people aren't as lucky as I am. I am thankful that no matter what mistakes I do that they will be their for me and help me through it. God has blessed me with an amazing family and I thank him everyday for that. I am thankful that everyone is healthy and happy. I am thankful for an amazing husband. I am thankful for a roof over our heads and food in the fridge. I am thankful for all the memories. I am thankful for my nephews and niece that were born this year. I am just thankful for so much this year. And I don't think I could name everything cause it's an endless list. BUT I am really excited for Thanksgiving. I am really looking forward to eating turkey. YUM!

Our BABY!

Since we found out we are going to have a baby, we've had two doctors appts. and one ultra sound. At our first doctors appt. we heard the babies heart beat, it was about 170-179 and when I heard it I almost starting crying! When I looked over at Nathan he had a huge smile on his face. Then next we had an ultra sound and it was so amazing. The baby (yes for the most part it looked like a baby) was moving around and it was just breath taking. The heart beat was about 163! We got three pictures of the baby and now they are hanging on our fridge. And then today I had another doctors appt. I got a full body exam and she said everything looks good and she told me that all my blood work was normal. Then finally I got to hear the heart beat again and it was about 170! I am so happy that everything so far has been going good. Nathan is hoping for a boy, but I know deep down inside he wants a girl. He said he thinks it's going to be a girl and he already has a name that he just loves. This is kind of feels unreal. I just can't believe there is a little baby growing inside my stomach. On Monday I will be 12 weeks and I feel super big already, I have a feeling I am going to have a big tummy. I can't wait to meet our little one! (: This is all just SOOO exciting!

Life has been crazy and exciting.

Our life lately..

As everyone knows we are excepting our first baby, due May 30th, 2011. Well since we found out about a month ago things have been VERY crazy. First our car breaks down, it turns out it was the fuel pump and then not long after we got it fixed our truck breaks down and they think it's the fuel pump. So FUNNY right? Nathan has also started a second job, even though it's only seasonal we are hoping it will become permanent. Hopefully in Jan. or Feb we can get a bigger place. Where we live right now there is no room for ANY baby stuff.

Anyway, things with my family have been hectic and I wish I was closer to them because I don't get to see them very often. Time has been going by so fast. Jorden is now 6 months old, my niece Madison is 5 1/2 months old and my nephew Rylan is a little over 2 months old. I am pretty excited that our baby will be about a year younger then he/she's cousins!


Here is Jorden!!










Madison!








Rylan!











Aren't they just so cute?